I have found my life peg. Here it is: www.goingslowly.com

That is what I want to do: Travel around the world with a bicycle. And a partner. With a bicycle. Hoho.

If money was not an option, I'll get myself a specialized brompton, buy a nex5n and decent underwater camera housing, purchase an hd video editing-capable laptop, pack the necessities, and ride out. Go the long way round. Bike 'til I ache.

But money is a finite resource.

And so, the preparation begins.

The what: Tour all 80 provinces in the Philippines
The when: July 27, 2014
The how: By bike, mostly. and some ferries. and some buses.
The how long: A year.
The how much: Hmm I shall set aside 10k per month for 12 months.
The why: Because.

I am excited. I am going to do this.

Again, WTF is wrong with me. 

It is now Friday and for the nth time, hindi parin tapos yung trabaho ko. Ano ba Bea. Lampas isang buwan na. But but first cut is done and it's not that bad. Kelangan pang iedit nambonggz though, at paikliin. Hayayay

Wala parin akong life at nararamdaman ko paring tumataba ako. Haha how could I not? When I sit in front of the computer all day. Kapag wala sa computer, nasa kama. I need to get out. May event bukas, I shall show up.

For the past few weeks puro YA fiction binabasa ko. :) Enjoying reading again, so much. Now kelangan ko ulit idiscover ang pagkukulong sa kwarto at paggawa ng storya, like my gradeschool days. Yak feeling ko talaga I have regressed so much, I'm lagging behind my peers in terms of ~success~ and it makes me feel crap, and then when I feel crap I tend to wallow in it, and to make myself feel better, I eat, and then I end up feeling worse. It's vicious, and I am at fault. I need to get a "real job". This month, go.

My plans to make my dream come true hasn't started yet. Anek. Anyare sa 30k a month target? Ang problema din kasi sakin pag hindi pa ko tapos sa isang task, I can't do anything else. Di ka marunong magmulti-task, teh? No, ang pinakaproblema sayo ay ang iyong lack of self-discipline and extreme hardcore procrastination skills. Ang hirap maging kalaban ang sarili.

I have been going on night shift this week, as in matutulog ako ng 6am, gigising ako ng mga 11, tapos werk werk werk until kinabukasan nanaman. Except that "werk werk werk" is actually 10% werk, 70% internet surfing, and 20% image editing. The hell is wrong with me. I plan to do some actual work at 12am but then one site leads to another and before I know it, 5am na. At saka lang ako magsisimula ng "actual werk". wat wat wat. And kahit iplan ko na 10 mins lang ako matutulog in the morning, na hihiga lang ako saglit, laging nagiging 3-hours or more. It never works, yet I keep doing it. Tanga ka teh? Here's a quote: "In order to do change something, you must do something you've never done before." Ok sablay yung quote hahaha but yun nga, I need to change this unhealthy routine. And now it is 10pm so matutulog na ko, to change my sleeping situation into a healthier one. Good night, me. Tomorrow's another day.

My Lakbayan grade is B!

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Created by Eugene Villar.

*The first is the most recent and accurate, the second one was as of july 2011. Hmm, haven't traveled much in 2012.

Now both parents have watched the video I've been working on, and THEY LIKE IT. Fuckyeah for me! So, so happy na hindi sila sad and disappointed and super huminga ako out of relief nung sinabi nilang they like it. :') It still needs work but wth, THEY LIKE IT. Sobrang kinakabahan kasi ako nun na iisipin nila na wth, isang buwan mo ito tinrabaho tapos ITO LANG? *shakes head* Music to my ears ang approval nila: a full-blown orchestra playing the Chariots of Fire.

First time I went to my parents' farm in Antipolo. Not bad. Trekked a bit to see gorgeous views, but sadly was not at the peak. Iba may ari ng peak dun sa mountain, but! Pag nalinis daw may trail naman na pwedeng puntahan for that. Hihi. May mga tanim na dun and I'm excited to see the fruits of it all. Tsaka, super proud ako sa parents ko for finally having this. Dream nila ang farm eh. :) Sana magbunga!

Watched the Babies documentary tonight, with mommeh tatay and nanay, at ANG KAYOOOOOT. HUHUHU lalo na the mongolian bebe. Kakagatin ko siya! Buti nalang nanood si Tatay with us, kagagaling niya lang kasi from Mongolia, arrived home yesterday. At sabi niya super kuntento yung mga herders with their lives there. Well with those great landscapes, how could they not? Dream country ko talaga ang Mongolia, ever since nakita ko yung parts ng Babies na nasa Mongolia. And this further cemented my dream of raising my baby in a farm. The mongolian baby (there were four babies in different parts of the world: japan, us, namibia, and mongolia), seems the happiest child, and has the most pleasant disposition. Rarely cries and keeps on babbling, his eyes wild with curiosity. Tapos tinatapaktapakan niya lang ang mga goats and hinahampas hampas ang mga cats in the cutest way possible and the animals don't mind because he's one of them. Contrast this to the US baby na ang animals such as cows ay nageexist lang sa picture book, for the Mongolian baby it's part of his everyday life. ANG KYOT KYOT KYOT :3 Ang chubby and droopy pa ng cheeks niya. And those skies - Tatay said it's really that amazing, humiga lang siya dun sa field with arms spread out. I'm a sucker for big wide open spaces so Mongolia would really take my breath away. Can't wait to experience it all. :)

I'm also thinking about volunteering for Coral Cay: shet shet shet bibigyan ka nila ng scuba license for FREE until advance open water cert! One of my orgmates volunteered there and I can tell that he had the best time. I want i want i want!! But this would definitely postpone my dream bike trip. Wala akong kikitain for a month niyan. But I MUST MUST do this soon para magkalicense na anuba! Thinking of September. Sana may slots pa please please at sana matanggap!

I BADLY NEED THE SEA.