Here I am again, putting off stuff that I have to do. Stuff that should have been done a week ago. Yet, it's still here, staring at me in the face.

I am behind my work again. Again. And again. Why do I keep procrastinating? And then I cycle into this self-hatred which leads to more unproductivity. I need a good kick. Once again I'm in a rut; perhaps this is because I haven't ridden my bike lately, and gotten out and exercised. Grabe sobrang gutumin ko this week (and last), andami kong kinakaing junk :( There's this incessant desire to keep on shoving food inside my mouth, in an attempt to fill my emptiness with something but I just end of feeling emptier. I have been driving my brother to school for a week already and it makes me tired every morning when I get back, I just fall right back to sleep and find my whole morning wasted. Been trying to resolve this by going to bed earlier at night, but I cannot sleep. And then in the afternoon I browse various blogs and the whole day passes by without me doing any work. Again.

This freelancing thing isn't for me anymore, what have I been telling you, self? So much wasted time. If only I could just buy self-discipline. "One week of self-discipline, please."

In a couple of weeks I'll be in a place I'd pretty much dreamt of since last year. And to be there, I have to finish all this stuff so GET MOVING. GET DOING. I just... ugh. I feel so empty.

It's not a good feeling.