More than the sea, more than the short, fun-because-of-the-people-i'm-with trip, more than the moonset and the crows (?) and the infinity pool swim, it was those two brief moments with him that made me thankful that I'm here, and that I did not push through with the trip. Those two meetings made everything okay.

I gathered my courage and initiated the visit; weighed my options and consequences and the scale tipped to positive, so I resolved to go ahead and just do it.  I was afraid, I was petrified ang drama hahaha pero buti nalang I caught my wits and not backed out when I was at the door. Worst thing that could happen is that he wasn't there (and then so what? Then he'll know I dropped by... and then, nothing. Wala namang negative effects masyado). Best thing is, magsabay kami umuwi hahaha pero what happened was the next best thing, I guess. Opening the door and actually going through it turned a what-was-supposed-to-be 30 minute boring, unproductive wait into a light, happy, smile-inducing GV conversation. :) 

I was looking back on how I came up with the decision. Magpapanotaryo dapat ako but then after 30mins pa babalik yung magnonotarize, and so I had nothing to do but kill time. His office was beside it so naisipan kong tumambay nalang dun kesa magpausok sa kalsada. Ang weird ko talaga siguro mag-appear any-any but I didn't have my phone with me so a surprise visit it is! HAHAHA. Glad I did, I pat you on the back, self. :) Anyway, mabalik nga. When I make a decision, I weight the pros and cons. I visualize a line, and the midpoint is zero, but the numbers on the left are the negative ones and the ones on the right are the positive ones. Ewan ko bat baliktad yung number line ko pero ganun ko siya naiimagine. So halimbawa may decision, titimbangin ko kung gano kalala yung worst possible thing na mangyayari and then I assign it a negative number and plot it on my imaginary number line. And then gagawin ko naman yun sa best case scenario, and instead of a negative number, positive number siya. For example, yung worst case scenario is -2, and the best case scenario is a positive 5. And then imemeasure ko yung length nung line na maccreate ko with those two points and then hahanapin ko yung midpoint. Kung yung midpoint ay positive, go for it. Kung negative, don't do it! to whoa magisip isip ka girl, depending on how far the negative number is from zero. HAHAHA ang labo ko magexplain wth and I could probably explain this with a few words but whatever. So yung sa kanina, worst case scenario is -2, best case scenario is Aa 10. so midpoint ng dalawang yun ay 8. Diba? So it's pretty much positive, go for it. Kung halimbawa naman, yung trip to my beloved province. Worst possible scenario is -15, best case is 14. So negative yung midpoint pero so close to zero, kaya mag-isipisip ka ang drama, tilting towards don't do it. And I didn't. So yun.

My baby cousins are here, huhu they're asleep beside me, sooooo kayooot. Andito rin si Tita from abroad. We ihad good paella dinner and muhroomburger pancit and some roasted chicken. Mmmm. Ngayon ang iniisip ko ay anong film ang gagamitin ko to shoot my baby cousins <3

Dami ko nang sinabi. Kelangan kong gumising bukas ng super aga to get my license back. Waw at last. HAHAHA @_@ Sana successful tomorrow.

Things I'm thankful for: my baby cousins, the safe trip, those meetings :)