Today, after two years, I opened my Plurk account to see how much I've changed. Charos. Ang kadiri ko actually, I stalked myself on Twitter and Plurk with the question: If I were a guy, would I be attracted to myself, given my social media writings as basis? :)) Well, objectively (haha as if keri ko maging objective about this ano), wala naman akong sinulat or shinare na embarrassing stuff. Yung twitter ko ay puro replies lang to friends, and some sharing of links. Yung plurk ko naman, yun yung madrama ng slight, pero keri lang kasi close friends naman yung nakakakita nun. Narealize ko lang pala sa plurk, how frequent I talked to my 'barkada' (na lagas lagas na ngayon, which is sad, but that's how it is; it's for the better), and how much we are addicted to each other. Yes addicted talaga. Chos. But seriously, kung may honeymoon phase, that was it. That and multiply days. Yung neverending asaran, sagutan, kahit wala namang pinatutunguhan. It was fun. And now meron na kaming sari-sariling lives, lives that call for the occasional overnight, but ok lang kami for long times na walang contact. We're growing up. :)))

Ang loser ko this week. Tried hard to finish work, but I keep getting distracted with ze innernetz. Antanda ko na at ganito parin problema ko. Ano ba. I really need to get a 9-5 job. For the discipline. Sana open pa yung gusto kong applyan.

I have been feeling light and happy this week. Haha. Hangover sa Verde Island eh. :) What a paradise! I love the whole world MOMENTS. Shet shet di ko parin makalimutan yung nakaimprint sa mind ko na image when I was rolling in the deep (haha) to get different perspectives tas everywhere I look there are schools of fishies, passing by each other, tapos mukhang highway kasi naka-line sila. Parang EDSA ganyan, if EDSA is blue and clean and a paradise. :') HUHU NAKAKAIYAK NAKAKAKILIG NAKAKAGIGIL. :D :D 

Also, I feel light dahil na din dun sa connection I've felt with a certain person. Kelangan ko nang mag-initiate anoba. I want this to go somewhere okay. Push! :)))

I terribly miss my GH2. Nex5n keeps on overheating :< At hindi ok yung range ng lens niya to cover the perspective I want. Ang hirap mag close-up. Deads bukas. Iniisip ko tuloy kung dapat sana yung large minidv cam nalang but the thought of one whole day transferring minidvs - AAH forget it. Grabe lang yung impatience ko. Tapos naiiyak nalang ako pag naiisip ko yung GH2 languishing somewhere - when I could've been using it for documenting shiz, what with its 14-140 lens, with awesome crop sa video which lets me do extreme close-ups without getting too inyourfez. And my investment sa batteries, sa memory cards, sa lens adapter... it hurts so much. :( AND IT NEVER OVERHEATS. Yung card and battery lang limitation. I could just point and click and wait and check the frame from time to time. With the nex I have to be on my toes. Which is kinda good BUT I WANT MY GH2. :(( Bakit ba wala akong pera ang lazy lazy ko ano ba yan puro nanaman ako selfpity istaaahp self, istahp.

I should just get my life together and MESSAGE HIM FOR GOD'S SAKE!!! But mostly for yours, hihihi go doeeet. You need inspiration.