The computer won't start - it keeps on getting stuck on the Starting Windows screen. My brother the computer wizard has tried to troubleshoot it, but to no avail. If he can't fix it, I'm doomed. @_@

I haven't backed up ALL of my files yet. And this is what I'm beating myself over.. Well wala rin namang mapaglalagyan nung files, but still! Ang pinakainaalala ko ay yung march travels album ko huhu. OK OMG I JUST CHECKED THE USB, AND MY FILES ARE STILL THERE!!! MY BELOVED MARCH TRAVELS FILE!!! HUHUHU TEARS OF HAPPINESS NOW. Hahaha. Shet ulitmate sigh of relief!!!!!! Sobrang kinabahan talaga ko dun kanina, I thought na mawawala nanaman ang lamave files ko forever. :( So, ok na kahit mawala yung files ko dun sa C:/.. but but nandun din yung pakisama files so please please sana masalba. Sana ok pa yung hard drive and pwedeng makuha yung mga files dun. Need to do this soon kasi nakatengga ang work ko okay! Kung kelan sinisipag na talaga ko nambonggz saka magkakaganito. I kick myself.

Anyway. I just hate how attached I am to technology. Mawala lang yung desktop namin, parang aatakihin na ko sa puso. I hate how my job depends on its working properly. Note: always, always back up! I have crappy work ethic wth. Need to fix this, okay! Nung nanakawan ako ng camera and laptop and everything except my clothes, I managed. Felt free even. Ansarap din ng feeling nang walang attachment to anything. Pero posible ba yun? To live life without any attachment? At all? To things, friends, family? Anong klaseng buhay naman yun? Makabuluhan ba? Maybe I need to redefine "attachment"? Humans, after all, could survive with just the basics. But what kind of life would that be? Magiging at peace siguro ako, pero masaya ba? Nakakainis kasi to live, I really have to depend on people. Unless nalang ma-Robinson Crusoe echos ako ano, yung tipong all alone in an island *shudder*. I wouldn't want that, pero yun na yung epitome of being alone, of being without any attachment. Pero sa ganitong buhay, how to detach? Is detachment the same as freedom? Can I truly be free of these worldly materials (without resorting to death ha!)? Kelangan ko pa itong pag-isipan nambonggz. Hmm maybe I should convert to buddhism.